L.O.V.E.

love love love.. what's love?? once there was a guy scolded me.. he said i'm still a little kid.. i still don't know what's love.. i'm still fooling around.. playing around.. like a kid.. he told me 'i love you' these three words are strong words.. we don't use it just like that.. it means a lot.. when i think back my past relationship.. i realized.. he was right.. i used that three words lk almost every minute to some1 who i thought i really love them.. apparently i misused the words.. it takes a long time before you use the three words.. 1st u gotta meet this person.. then u have to know his background and his personality.. see whether u guys can click or not.. do u feel happy with that person?? u cannot judge a person by their look.. their skin tone.. their body shape.. if u did that.. i'm sure you will never find true love.. there's a lot of players outside.. good looking.. rich.. driving a nice car.. these are the things that a girl like.. in the end.. what they get?? they lose their body (some virginity) n they get their heart broken.. then they start crying n feel regret.. some even lose their dignity too by begging those jerks to be with them again.. stupid girls.. virginity is a very important thing.. it means something.. i know u will think i'm soooo close minded.. but i seriously do think that u shouldn't lose it to any1 but to the person u really love... whenever u wanna use the three words think 1st: are you going to marry this person?? u sure you will love this person forever?? a lot of girls thought 'oh i care about him.. he cares about me too.. i give up a lot of things for him.. i'm sure he won't leave me..' hahaha!! apparently they don't know anything about love or guys.. love is not just about caring each other or how much u give up.. it's about the feelings there.. can u guys click when u guys are talking?? do u guys feel happy whenever u guys are together?? no matter what your partner do it will make u feel happy.. before u wanna start a relationship.. always ask yourself.. what attract u the most?? are you really sure u want this?? don't get into a relationship in a rush.. what's the point u get into a relationship in a rush.. in the end u guys break up.. hurting each others.. then start crying n hating each other.. fighting.. hmm.. we should think twice before getting into a relationship.. don't be naive.. boys are not as easy as u think.. girls too.. some they look innocent.. but they're dangerous.. hahha!! so just becareful.. there's a lot of players out there.. hope everyone won't get their heart broken so often.. haha!! tomorrow school starting.. need to hit my bed now.. it's 2.32am.. haha!! night.. sweet dreamz guys!!

firework

today i did the mcq test for hystology.. i couldn't get full marks.. it just a simple test.. and i can't get full marks.. this time i really feel like i'm very stupid.. y i can't score a simple test?? i feel like i need more luck.. no matter how hard i try.. it just not there.. i don't know why.. is this how i'm going to live for the rest of my life.. everyday.. every exam.. depends on luck... without luck i'm nothing?? i always listen to katy perry-firework.. try to boost up my confident.. but it's not helping anymore.. i really feel like i'm stupid.. other ppl can go out n party.. i can't.. ppl always ask y i so hardworking.. they always thought i scare to lose.. actually i'm not.. i try so hard only can get the same level as u guys.. if i still follow u guys to party.. what kind of result i will get?? it's gonna be worst.. my parents never ask me to get full marks.. but.. i still wish to do the best.. today when i sat in front of the computer answering the questions.. i was soo nervous.. n i forgot some of the answer.. the book was just in front of me.. i wish i could open it.. but i didn't... because i know by cheating i won't go far.. so i trust myself.. n be honest.. but i let myself down... really sad.. n depressed.. i wish i can be a smarter person like my other frens.. just a simple mcq test.. hate myself...

loneliness know me by name...

Since Dazzwaizie left me behind... my life is different.. i don't have a lab partner.. i don't have a partner in fizikatura class.. i always partner with a random guy... i really miss him!! nobody accompany me to answer anatomy.. do u know how hard it is to answer alone.. even our cooking group... all totally different.. different way of cooking.. new partner.. devton... our food timetable is a mess... really miss u... i can't gossip anymore.. really miss our gossiping time... last time when i'm bored i'll go to your room n chill.. now.. just stayed in my own room.. i remembered last time both of us in the study room.. studying anatomy.. we talked n laugh... the very 1st chapter of anatomy.. hahaha!! that was fun... haiz... wish u could stay here accompany me... shopping.. eating.. do a lot of things together.. here's the pics that i didn't upload on facebook..