Tyler~~~

L.O.V.E.

2011-08-31T14:21:00.000-07:00

love love love.. what's love?? once there was a guy scolded me.. he said i'm still a little kid.. i still don't know what's love.. i'm still fooling around.. playing around.. like a kid.. he told me 'i love you' these three words are strong words.. we don't use it just like that.. it means a lot.. when i think back my past relationship.. i realized.. he was right.. i used that three words lk almost every minute to some1 who i thought i really love them.. apparently i misused the words.. it takes a long time before you use the three words.. 1st u gotta meet this person.. then u have to know his background and his personality.. see whether u guys can click or not.. do u feel happy with that person?? u cannot judge a person by their look.. their skin tone.. their body shape.. if u did that.. i'm sure you will never find true love.. there's a lot of players outside.. good looking.. rich.. driving a nice car.. these are the things that a girl like.. in the end.. what they get?? they lose their body (some virginity) n they get their heart broken.. then they start crying n feel regret.. some even lose their dignity too by begging those jerks to be with them again.. stupid girls.. virginity is a very important thing.. it means something.. i know u will think i'm soooo close minded.. but i seriously do think that u shouldn't lose it to any1 but to the person u really love... whenever u wanna use the three words think 1st: are you going to marry this person?? u sure you will love this person forever?? a lot of girls thought 'oh i care about him.. he cares about me too.. i give up a lot of things for him.. i'm sure he won't leave me..' hahaha!! apparently they don't know anything about love or guys.. love is not just about caring each other or how much u give up.. it's about the feelings there.. can u guys click when u guys are talking?? do u guys feel happy whenever u guys are together?? no matter what your partner do it will make u feel happy.. before u wanna start a relationship.. always ask yourself.. what attract u the most?? are you really sure u want this?? don't get into a relationship in a rush.. what's the point u get into a relationship in a rush.. in the end u guys break up.. hurting each others.. then start crying n hating each other.. fighting.. hmm.. we should think twice before getting into a relationship.. don't be naive.. boys are not as easy as u think.. girls too.. some they look innocent.. but they're dangerous.. hahha!! so just becareful.. there's a lot of players out there.. hope everyone won't get their heart broken so often.. haha!! tomorrow school starting.. need to hit my bed now.. it's 2.32am.. haha!! night.. sweet dreamz guys!!

firework

2011-03-07T07:19:00.000-08:00

today i did the mcq test for hystology.. i couldn't get full marks.. it just a simple test.. and i can't get full marks.. this time i really feel like i'm very stupid.. y i can't score a simple test?? i feel like i need more luck.. no matter how hard i try.. it just not there.. i don't know why.. is this how i'm going to live for the rest of my life.. everyday.. every exam.. depends on luck... without luck i'm nothing?? i always listen to katy perry-firework.. try to boost up my confident.. but it's not helping anymore.. i really feel like i'm stupid.. other ppl can go out n party.. i can't.. ppl always ask y i so hardworking.. they always thought i scare to lose.. actually i'm not.. i try so hard only can get the same level as u guys.. if i still follow u guys to party.. what kind of result i will get?? it's gonna be worst.. my parents never ask me to get full marks.. but.. i still wish to do the best.. today when i sat in front of the computer answering the questions.. i was soo nervous.. n i forgot some of the answer.. the book was just in front of me.. i wish i could open it.. but i didn't... because i know by cheating i won't go far.. so i trust myself.. n be honest.. but i let myself down... really sad.. n depressed.. i wish i can be a smarter person like my other frens.. just a simple mcq test.. hate myself...

loneliness know me by name...

2011-02-27T07:10:00.000-08:00

Since Dazzwaizie left me behind... my life is different.. i don't have a lab partner.. i don't have a partner in fizikatura class.. i always partner with a random guy... i really miss him!! nobody accompany me to answer anatomy.. do u know how hard it is to answer alone.. even our cooking group... all totally different.. different way of cooking.. new partner.. devton... our food timetable is a mess... really miss u... i can't gossip anymore.. really miss our gossiping time... last time when i'm bored i'll go to your room n chill.. now.. just stayed in my own room.. i remembered last time both of us in the study room.. studying anatomy.. we talked n laugh... the very 1st chapter of anatomy.. hahaha!! that was fun... haiz... wish u could stay here accompany me... shopping.. eating.. do a lot of things together.. here's the pics that i didn't upload on facebook..

a random question...

2010-12-07T13:08:00.000-08:00

yeah.. it's been a month i studied in russia.. medic.. i know u guys must be surprised.. expected.. cause i know u guys still look down on me.. a small boy with a big dream.. just now i was taking my bath.. a sudden question pop up in my head.. am i even qualified to study medic?? ppl always think that i'm a playful person... like to sleep.. lazy.. but when i'm serious.. do u guys know??? when they told me this kind of stuff.. i just admit it n laugh along.. cause i don't feel lk explaining.. my results are not good.. so of course they won't believe me.. i don't want to embarrass myself.. feel stress in the class.. (*a lot of things happened in the class.. don't wish to mention it here.. don't wish to hurt their feelings.. even though is true.. but.. NAH.. keeping it to myself..) i don't think i can fit into the class.. even my mom feel embarrass to tell other ppl that i'm studying medic too.. she's not proud of it.. am i really that bad?? that lousy n useless?? sometimes i really want to cry.. i really hope someone can feel the way i feel.. i really hope someone can understand me.. help me.. i really don't know what to do.. all the stress.. all the negative comments.. without my parents support.. i feel that i'm alone in this world.. friends?? they only call me when they want to hang out.. sometimes i really know how to do that question.. i understand the question.. but none of them believe me.. cause i'm not the smart one obviously.. so.. most of the time when they ask me question.. i prefer to say i don't know.. don't wish to teach them the wrong things n don't wish to hurt my own feeling.. living in a world.. full of kiasu ppl in the class.. full of selfish ppl.. i have no idea how i can make it.. i only can pray hard.. pray that i can make it through 6 years here.. hope everything will be fine..

stress or not??

2010-04-20T07:55:00.000-07:00

left three more weeks.. AS coming... I suppose to be stress... but i'm not.. i still online and enjoying my time... wth?? and updating my blog.. is been a long while i didn't update my blog... k.. nothing much to write.. bye..

headache....

2010-01-24T03:40:00.000-08:00

this few days i keep on receive comments from my frens about my study now... they don't think i suit studying science... i asked y... they told me because i don't have the 'look'.. i was like.. wth... i really want to ask.. only nerdy ppl suit studying science?? even my mom... she called and ask me to think wisely... i know i'm not that good... that's y... since high school... i always a loser... everyone look down on me... if anything they don't understand... even i'm sitting beside them... they didn't even bother to ask me... Am i really that bad?? i admit i'm lazy.. and i'm not smart... but this time.. i really hope i can finish this A-level programme...and i will try to turn over a new leaf.. try to be as nerdy as possible.. haiz... i hope i can graduate with nice grade... and continue my study.. other than science..i don't know wat to study.. my heart juz torn into pieces whenever they talked about the subjects i'm taking... it makes me feel that i'm useless.. i'm not that good.. i only will waste my mom money... haiz...

Leona Lewis ft. One Republic-Lost Then Found

2010-01-16T20:25:00.000-08:00

i really love this song... but i don't know how to put this song in my blog.. so u guys can listen to it.. if anyone know.. pls leave me a comment... help me.. lolx..here's the lyrics for this song

Staring at tears on the pages
Of letters that I never could write
Now I know love isn't painless,
But it's worth the risk,
It's worth the fight
Playing it over and over
I wish that I could turn back time, baby
We were wrong, but we could be right

Why do we say things we can't take back
Why do we miss what we never had
Both of us fell to the ground
The love was so lost, it couldn't be found
Why do you tend to forget whose vain
I'm tired of crying out at the sound of your name
Why don't we turn this around, love ain't the enemy
Don't you want to be lost then found
Lost then found, lost then found
Love ain't the enemy
We could be lost then found

Empty glasses on tables, echoes fill these rooms
The memories go where we go,
There like the suitcase that you never lose
If the good lords eyes upon me
I swear to make things right
Whatever we lost, I know we can find

Why do we say things we can't take back
Why do we miss what we never had
Both of us fell to the ground
The love was so lost, it couldn't be found
Why do you tend to forget whose vain
I'm tired of crying out at the sound of your name
Why don't we turn this around, love ain't the enemy
Don't you want to be lost then found

No words can come without
Can't stop the rain, I wish you could take it back
But it's too late, it's too late

Why do we say things we can't take back
Why do we miss what we never had
Both of us fell to the ground
The love was so lost, it couldn't be found
Why do you tend to forget whose vain
I'm tired of crying out at the sound of your name
Why don't we turn this around, love ain't the enemy
Don't you want to be lost then found
Lost then found, lost then found
Love ain't the enemy
We could be lost then found

No words can come without
Can't stop the rain, (Lost then found)
I wish you could take it back (Lost then found)
But it's too late, it's too late

We could be lost then found...

My 18 B'day in Kuantan!!

2009-12-22T03:11:00.000-08:00

20 of Dec... my b'day... this year i celebrated with my frens in kuantan at a japanese restaurant name Sendo No Ya... my frens surprised me with 18 cute mini pink red cupcakes... i remembered... after we finish eating... melisa said she needs to go to toilet...and sean followed too... i never thought they will surprise me...i thought juz a dinner.. that's all... sean came back and told us melisa is pooping in the toilet... hahaha... in a sudden...the light off... and i saw melisa came in with 18 cupcakes... i was shocked... and i'm so happy... unexpected... i'm really happy... thanks to melisa, sean, harn jean, rufus, juanne, junrong, li ann and my wonderful photographer aaron... love u guys so much... for giving me this wonderful dinner... thank you...

Holidaysssssssssssssss......

2009-12-18T10:28:00.000-08:00

The second week of holiday................................most of my time...i'm at home..... did nothing.... facebook everyday..... NEVER miss.... i'm bored to death... and i didn't even touch the books...even though i had promise myself to study a bit before the school starts... lolx... miss my school days... this holidays.... i've been thinking the days i'm in college... from the 1st day of college till now.... the 1st day of school... i remember i don't have any friend... until i met audrey isaac and kit... after few weeks i know sabeel, chee kiang, estee and christine.. then alia and almaz... oh yea... 'carlann'...lolx... at 1st they don't really like me... i knew that... but after a few months... it's getting better.... and i'm very happy with it... cause finally i can fit into them.. now i actually get friends from other classes too... in my class... only a few ppl that still talk bad about me.. i knew that... but i juz ignore it.. hope the next sem i can be even better... and get more friends... my exam's result coming out soon... scary... cause it's badly done... my mom will defitnitely slaughter me alive when she see my result... good luck to my friends... if i score well... i'm sure they will be better... like what my mom said.. if i get 95 in my test... the whole class can get 100... lolx... she always said that... hope to see my classmate soon... miss them so much...

bio....

2009-10-21T03:47:00.000-07:00

yesterday...bio practical...i can't do the experiment right...so sad...keep on getting the wrong result...but after the class end...ms.choong show me how to conduct the experiment...and i got it right...and the colour is really nice...thanks to ms.choong...she's the best teacher ever...i guess...lolx...she always explained to me things that i don't understand...but some of my fren don't really like her...for me..she's ok...not really that bad...well..no comment^^...lolx...i more prefer bio practical compare to chemistry practical...chemistry practical give me headache ny...the lab is hot...the apparatus can defitnitely go to the bin...lolx...and the teacher...er....err....no comment...hahaha...and we need a lot of apparatus in an experiment...need to wash and clean...haiz...lazy....bio practical is wayyyyyyyyyy more fun...lolx....at least i understand what am i doing...and why am i doing...for chem...i did most of the experiment....blindly~~~lol...juz follow the instruction...don't know why i do the experiment...lolx...

one special night...

2009-10-20T01:56:00.000-07:00

19 of october...tuesday night...i went to one U with my bf (best fren) and we had CHILI's..is really nice...and i like it...and we took some photos...is a really happy night...thanks...

mooncake festival..

2009-10-11T01:41:00.000-07:00

Back to kuantan...celebrate mooncake festival..with my family and my friends....
here are some pic that pey sien took when we celebrating mooncake fastival at tc with harn jean melisa kah shin and pey sien...love it...thanks pey sien...lolx...

my dad....

2009-10-10T11:39:00.000-07:00

is 2.38 in the morning..listening to the song 'butterfly fly away' by miley cyrus...it reminds me of my family.. especially my dad...the lyrics reminds me of my dad...when i was young...the way he treated me...last time i'm scare of dark..so he will accompany me first...he will leave after i fall asleep...if i can't sleep..he will tap my shoulder...until i fall asleep...and sing a song...lolx..for so long i can't feel that he cares for me...all these while i always thought my mom is the best...now i think my dad is the best...he's the one that work hard to build up this family...earn money to buy stuff for me...my mom told me..after i was born...he got chicken pox..but he still go to work.. sometimes when yell at him...he didn't get angry...he juz keep quiet...my frens said the way we talk...juz lk fren...he's the best...and i feel so sorry when i did something wrong..or shouted at him...i'm really sorry dad...i remember when i'm in primary school...teacher make us look for the meaning of a few chinese words... there's a chinese word..the word is complicated...i can't find it in the dictionary...and that time is quite late..feel lk sleeping...but in the end i fell asleep on the table...when i woke up in the morning...i saw the dictionary open at the page i wanted..i knew is my dad...i think he slept late too...cause he's helping me to look for the meaning of the word..i always yell at him...which i seldom did it now...he never get mad at me...i remember in form 1 i lost my i.c. and i need it the next day in school...is quite late too...before that i quarrel with him because i lost my i.c...he said i'm irresponsible..and everything...n i yell back...can't remember what i said^^...in the end...he still help me to look for it...last time i was a really forgetful kid...i always forget to bring my homework to school..he's the one that send it to me...even though he's late for work...now...everytime when i go back during the holidays...i feel so happy when i see him...he always be the first one to call me and ask me where am i now...the next day...he will take leave...to accompany me...stay home and have family time...when i'm in kl...at night.. for sure he will give a call...sometimes he scare he will annoyed me...he called me...when i pick up...he said:'actually your mom has something wanna talk to u..' when he pass it to my mom... my mom told me that actually she has nothing to say...she said your dad is the one that wanna talk to u...hahahaha... sometimes when i call my mom but i didn't call him...after i finish talking with my mom...after a few seconds..he will call me..and said:'call mommy only...didn't even bother to call me and talk to me..' i was like...hahahaha...he's jealous...the fisrt month i'm in kl...i had face a lot of problems...especially the problems to fit into the new school..and friends..at night he will call me and talk about it...what can i say??? he's a good dad...i'm kind of miss him now...and my eyes are wet...lolx....i really want to say i love you dad..n sorry for everything i did...and my eyes are wet...lolx....maybe because of the song..is really touching...here's the lyrics...enjoy^^..

Miley Cyrus-Butterfly Fly Away
You tuck me in,
Turn out the light
Kept me safe and sound at night
Little girls depend on things like that

Brushed my teeth and combed my hair
Had to drive me everywhere
You were always there when I looked back

You had to do it all alone
Make a living, make a home
Must have been as hard as it could be

And when I couldn't sleep at night
Scared things wouldn't turn out right
You would hold my hand and sing to me

Caterpillar in the tree, how you wonder who you'll be
Can't go far but you can always dream
Wish you may and wish you might
Don't you worry hold on tight.
I promise you there will come a day
Butterfly Fly Away
Butterfly Fly Away (butterfly fly away)

Flap your wing now you can't stay
Take those dreams and make them all come true
Butterfly Fly Away (butterfly fly away)
We been waiting for this day
All along and know just what to do
Butterfly,
Butterfly,
Butterfly,
Butterfly Fly Away

(Butterfly Fly Away)

(Butterfly Fly Away)

yay!!!

2009-10-09T04:30:00.000-07:00

is friday...my favourite day....today i went shopping with my fren...and i bought something...now..i can't have my lunch and my dinner as usual..cause my wallet is full with butterfly now...lolx....now i have to study...next thursday i have my chemistry test...and the teacher gave us 9 essay...wth??tat's a lot man...need 2 stay in my room and finish the 9 chemistry essay...haiz...i even cancel my date with aaron...hate it man...when i wanna have fun...there's always lots of homework or tests...ish!! I WANNA HAVE FUN!!! ishh.... hope i can relax for one day...my bro having his pmr test this week...hope he can score well...lolx...hope after that...my mom will come and pay me a visit...cause i don't have any holidays until dec...miss my family...haiz....k..wanna study now...byebye...

bad day...

2009-10-06T02:05:00.000-07:00

today everything didn't really go so well...i have tons of homework..and today got scolded by the bio teacher because i can't name the colour correctly...haiz....and suddenly a damn annoying ppl juz pop out in my head...i remember what he said about my fren and what he did to my fren...my heart...suddenly feel so moody...don't feel lk talking...when i reach my hostel...i keep playing this really nice song-don't forget about us by mariah carey....i know is an old song...but is really nice..i don't know what to write...kind of moody now...here's the lyrics of the song...enjoy^^

Mariah Carey-Don't Forget About Us
Intro:
(Don't forget about us)

Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
No baby, no baby, no baby no
don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
My baby...boy

(Verse I)
Just let it die
With no goodbyes
Details don't matter
We both paid the price
Tears in my eyes
You know sometimes
It'd be like that baby (yeah)

(Bridge I)
Now everytime I see you
I pretend I'm fine
When I wanna reach out to you
But I turn and I walk and I let it ride
Baby I must confess
We were bigger than anything
Remember us at our best
And don't forget about...

(Chorus)
Late nights, playin' in the dark
And wakin' up inside my arms
Boy, you'll always be in my heart and
I can see it in your eyes
You still want it
So don't forget about us

I'm just speaking from experience
Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us

(Verse II)
Oh, they say
That you're in a new relationship
But we both know
Nothing comes close to
What we had, it perseveres
That we both can't forget it
How good we used to get it
boy...
(Bridge II)
There's only one me and you
And how we used to shine
No matter what you go through
We are one, that's a fact
That you can't deny
So baby we just can't let
The fire pass us by
Forever we'd both regret it
So don't forget about

(Chorus)
Late nights, playin' in the dark
And wakin' up inside my arms
Boy, you'll always be in my heart and
I can see it in your eyes
You still want it
So don't forget about us

I'm just speaking from experience
Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us

And if she got your head all messed up now
That's the trickery
she'll wanna have like you know how this lovin' used to be (ah)
I bet she can't do it like me
She'll never be MC

Baby don't you, don't you
forget about us.....

Late nights, playin' in the dark
And wakin' up inside my arms
Boy, you'll always be in my heart oh baby and
I can see it in your eyes
You still want it
So don't forget about us

I'm just speaking from experience
Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us........(oooh oh)

Late nights, playin' in the dark
And wakin' up inside my arms
Boy, you'll always be in my heart and
I can see it in your eyes
You still want it
So don't forget about us

I'm just speaking from experience
Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you, babe
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us

Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
No baby, no baby, no baby no
don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
when it's for real, it's forever
so don't forget about us.

sad day...

2009-09-28T03:58:00.000-07:00

Today i saw the person... my heart pump so fast...i was so nervous...i'm always so nervous when i saw that person..i don't know why...(the person identity cannot be reveal^^)..lolx...just hope one day...something miracle happen...and i won't be that nervous anymore...today i got back my chemistry test paper...the result...quite suckee...lolx...but nvm...it just a small test...thursday there will be a biology test...haven't prepare yet...but i still have time blogging...lolx...going to study soon after this...lolx...my english is not that good...so sorry if i have typing error...really sorry...uhm...ok...wish me luck in the bio test...and i hope my love life will be better...thank you...lolx....

my 1st blog...

2009-09-27T00:09:00.000-07:00

hey...this is my very 1st own blog...i'm 17...turning 18 soon...i don't wish to turn 18..it sounds old...haha...i love listening to music...n partying...i'm kind of out-going guy...the thing that i hate the most is that...whenever i have a party to go...there's exam..or some annoying people ruin my party mood!!especially those boastful ppl...i really hate this type of ppl...who always claim themselves hot pretty or cute...which r so not...wakakaka...back off...hahaha...juz be yourself..like me...lolx...i'm a very sensitive guy...now i'm studying in sunway college...other than partying...i love to shop too!!shopping is the best...i juz love to put on anything that is nice...lolx...and i will buy it if i affordable....lolx...most of the time i will juz buy it if i really really love it...lolx....test coming soon..and i haven't study anything...hope there's no exam..and i can go party again...yeahhh....this year i move into sunway hostel...my roommate..chong kian...the cool one...yong taur(troy)...the hilarious one..jun long(sorry if i spell wrong)..the quiet one...hong liang..the smart one...smart ass!! and another smart and funny one...thomas!!hahaha...he's funny...i love to hang out with them...they are really nice...really nice...in school..i got to know a few cool friends...isaac...audrey...alia...almaz...sabeel..chee kiang..christine..estee..and a lot more...but they are the closest one..they are really nice too...especially estee...she's so friendly...hahaha....i'm really happy that i can get along with them...lolx...going to study now...bye..